I know that everyone gets creatively paralyzed from time to time. For me, the biggest creative suck has been being unwell.... or so I thought. (For those who are curious about my health status... I've left the details at the bottom of the post.)
The other day I had a chat with a good friend who is also dealing with an as of yet undiagnosed long term illness. She said she started asking the question, "What would be different if I was well?" I realized that other than having a bit more energy and less pain, things might not be that much different for me. As I started to wrestle with the question of what really was sucking my creativity away, I came across this TED talk by Elizabeth Gilbert. She is the author of Eat, Pray, Love and Big Magic, among other titles. I really loved her insight on how creativity used to be looked at differently. Creativity was once seen as something from beyond, but after the Renaissance, it started being seen as something that came from oneself. I'd hate to spoil the talk, but I'd like to encourage all you creatives to sit down and have a listen.
The latest health update: I'm still undiagnosed, but each test and procedure I've done has come up clean, which is good. After having a colonoscopy, I've learned that I have an enviable colon. He didn't even biopsy me, I was that good. I'm now gluten free, dairy free, sugar free, (and fun free)... and eating as many anti-inflammatory things a person can eat (bone broth, bone broth, bone broth). My mental clarity is fantastic and for some reason my hearing has also become amazing, but the weird gut/nerve/not sure what they are spasms continue. I'm hoping it is just a nerve that got irritated and just needs a long time to not be inflamed.
Also, as I was doing the colonoscopy prep, I came across two really good accounts relating to it. This one made me laugh. And this one had some great tips I wish I had known about beforehand, like having a supply of Vaseline. Luckily we had Desitin on hand. I left a good dose of that on my bum after the colonoscopy and I was good as new the next day.