Friday, October 2, 2015

It's All Going To Be Alright

I like to try to blog at least once a week. I think it is a good practice and allows me to keep my writing and photography skills sharp. In writing this blog, it can be difficult to decide how to stay genuine without over sharing. Recently most of my posts have covered knitting failings and fun vacations, but they leave out the less glamorous parts of life. The tears, stress, and insecurities are difficult to convey and often there isn't a photo to describe what is going on.

They say that the first year of marriage is the hardest. I'd say that has been true, but it isn't the marriage itself. If anything Connor has been the most steadfast part of my life. It's all the weird crap that swirls around us that has been difficult, like the month we dealt with a false insurance claim against us. Long story short, we were accused of rear ending someone and the driver who caused the accident gave false insurance and license plate.... our license plate. When we finally were able to convince the insurance that we weren't there by having them photograph our car to prove there was no damage, they forgot to call off collections. It's sorted now, but it was stressful while it was happening.

Just this past week a traumatizing event occurred. No one was hurt, but I was severely spooked. It's been difficult to know exactly what to write, so for now I will leave it. But I have learned quite a bit. (Might as well get something out of all the pain.) I'm gaining a stronger sense of empathy for those going through tough times. I also know that behind everyone's beautiful blog, there is someone who is trying to make ends meet, who is dealing with death or illness in the family, who isn't sure what they should do with their lives. And really, it's ok. Things will work out one way or another (although usually not according to plan). There really is only one guarantee in life (other than death and taxes) and that is that things will always be scary. It's hard making decisions and it's impossible to know what is right. And it's ok to be scared.

Future blog posts will probably continue with mini trips and fiber-related content, but I just felt it was time to talk about something a little different. Hopefully I can take my own advice and remember that things will be ok.

10 comments :

Jennifer said...

I'm so sorry that things have been hard and scary and stressful lately. That is so horrible about the false insurance claim - - UGH, that would make me so angry and stressed out. I hope the situation with the other thing turns out okay. I haven't been able to comment for a while because my hands are literally occupied with my newborn baby, but I've been enjoying your posts.

kiwiyarns said...

Oh Audry, that sounds awful. I am really glad you can take the positive spin on all this - I need those words too at the moment. :-) Hang in there girl. And as you say, it Will be Alright! xxx

Becca said...

You're a brave lady and I think you're right here - it is okay to be scared, but it will be alright!

Angela Bellamy said...

I hope that you come through this tough time with renewed strength and resolve. I love reading of your adventures and I'm glad you felt that you were able to share the more "human" part of your life with us, we are all human and we all have those moments where we just put our hands up and wonder what the heck is going on but as my wise old grandmother would always tell me "This to shall pass and you will have learned something about yourself you didn't know" I hope you are all okay and I look forward to reading about your next adventure.

woollenwilderness said...

Beautifully written post. The false insurance claim sounds so scary and stressful, I'm glad to hear it is sorted now. And great that you have such a positive attitude about life!

DKnits said...

Audry I'm so sorry. I hope everything will get better as soon as possible.

Alina Sayre said...

Thanks for your sincerity, friend :) While I really enjoy your upbeat adventure posts, it's always validating to see it in print: no one's life is perfect. No one has it all together. And it's gonna be OK anyway.

audiographer said...

Tell me that's not Shasta at the bottom with no snow?? :(

Keep enjoying the journey, windy roads and all.

Maryse said...

This is surely a post that many of us will relate to. This is life. Sometimes we forget that we are not the only ones who suffer. I'm also glad you can see a positive side to it! That means you are a strong women :)

Alicia said...

Oh yes, everything gets crazy sometimes. The nice thing about marriage is that there's someone bound by love and law to go through the craziness with you. Sometimes that's harder, but most of the time it's better. Literally the day after our honeymoon we got in a car accident and had to deal with all the resulting headaches. Everything gets resolved eventually and as scary as life is, I think it's often better with a partner, especially as you learn how to handle things together. Many hugs.

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